6 Ways ‘Borderline Splitting’ Makes Me Consistently Inconsistent
6 Ways ‘Borderline Splitting’ Makes Me Consistently Inconsistent I have often felt like a walking contradiction. Living this way has my mind and heart oscillating between two extreme but opposite realities. This inconsistency of my personality has me questioning my very sense of self: who am I? Who do I want to be? My inner […]
Borderline Rage
Borderline Rage Dear Anger, You lured me in with your cunning —seduced You felt so good running through my veins —addicting The vibration in my body overtakes me —blinded You gave me something I never had —power Nothing matters when you’re with me —deception As your presence leaves my body, I fall —guilt You leave […]
Battling the “I’m Not Good Enough” Syndrome
Battling the “I’m Not Good Enough” Syndrome You may wonder, what is this not good enough epidemic I keep hearing about? It is something that I discovered I had a few years ago. In more recent times, I have heard others share similar experiences to my own––expressing the symptoms and life outcomes that reflected that […]
Redefining Borderline Personality Disorder from the DSM Criteria
Redefining Borderline Personality Disorder from the DSM Criteria Disclaimer: This is long and emotionally intensive as it is a representation of my thought process as someone who is borderline. I promise an encouraging ending. It has taken me 23 years to effectively communicate my emotions. I felt trapped by the stigma and damning diagnostic criteria. […]
Is Your Past Creating a Roadblock to Wellness?
Is Your Past Creating a Roadblock to Wellness? In my teenage and early adult years, I was so consumed with my own suffering, that I didn’t realize how my suicidality and self destructive tendencies affected my parents. Having tunnel vision, I was hyper focused on my own emotional pain I have to admit; at the […]
An Overview of Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)
An Overview of Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) What Is BPD??? Borderline personality Disorder (BPD), is a serious mental illness that centres on an inability to manage emotions effectively. There is a long-term pattern of abnormal behaviour characterized by: Unstable relationships with other people Unstable sense of self Unstable emotions Everyone can most likely recognize some of the BPD traits to varying degree. It […]
When BPD Makes You Consistently Inconsistent
When BPD Makes You Consistently Inconsistent I have often felt like a walking contradiction. Living this way has my mind and heart oscillating between two extreme but opposite realities. This inconsistency of my personality has me questioning my very sense of self; who I am? Who do I want to be? My inner voice at […]
Borderline Splitting – Chaos to Perfection
Borderline Splitting – Chaos to Perfection Humans are complex beings which can readily experience two opposite feelings at the same time – for example: seeing someone on vacation and feeling happy for them while at the same time feeling sad for yourself. Children in their very early development are unable to hold these complexities yet. […]
What’s Hiding Behind Your Anger?
What’s Hiding Behind Your Anger? Recently I had an epiphany . . . rewinding, I had several days of feeling very lost, consumed with anger, irritability, and found I was lashing out at those I love. I could find any reason to be angry with my loved one––was stuck in a cycle of blaming and […]
Self-Awareness is a Super Power
Self-Awareness is a Super Power With BPD it feels as if my emotions are happening to me, rather than me simply feeling them and then choosing how to respond. Emotions seem so big, overwhelming and intense, that they swallow me up – there seems to be no space between emotion and reaction. Many times I […]